in response to lonesomeland... Absolutely no problem, and in truth if a girl is looking at you for your money, than she is not a girl worth your time. There is not one person in this world that has not got a problem of some sort. Some are more severe than others grant you, but every one has problems. I my self have been single for, God I guess going on 12 or so years now. I have had a couple relationships in between that time, but none panned out to be more that something someone else could take. Made me just not trust men much anymore. I have several friends and only a friend that are guys, but nothing consisting of a relationship. I also found that if you don't look your greatest fears in the face, than they will over take you every time. I just don't let anything have that power over me anymore. You can do the same thing. Also one day your daughter is going to come to you, not for what you can give her, but for what she has been missing in her life from you all these years, just let her have her time to be mad or what ever rebels she has. It too will pass. You have given what you needed to show her, it is still important for you to be in her life irregardless. And Good For You on that. With your other children, just keep up your relationship with them as well. But don't sell yourself short, get out there and meet people, you are not dead, and you don't deserve to live like it either. Don't be one of those shy guys either, but also don't come on like a, excuse my french but a Jack Ass. Just be you, and let them see you, and you will find that someone that wants to be that other part of you. Don't speak of your problems, unless asked, and if asked be honest, don't settle for something you know to not be right for you. Whatever you do for gosh sakes, don't grab onto the first one that comes along either, and give yourself no less than 6 months to know this person. If you have and pet P's about them, then that is your heart saying no, this is not the one. If you find one that everything just happens to just seem like it's flowing, you don't have to put a lot of efforts into it. I would say you found a winner, but like I said give yourself time to see that, if it is hear today, it will be there tomorrow too. YOU CAN DO THIS! With your debts do make sure that you call them. I would like to see you at peace. One thing that I used to say to folks, is don't worry about shit, until you have shit to worry about. If someone is showing up at your door, greet them, get a card from them, and tell them your lawyer will be in touch. Say nothing more, offer them no more explanation, bid them a good day, and shut the door. If they call you do the same. Once you get these other guys involved, all this will stop. So you can see you are on the road to recovery, but follow through to, once you start do not stop until you have accomplished your task. Never loose sight of God either. He loves you, don't turn your back on him. He is not on you I promise. He will never give you more than you can handle, but he won't allow you to suffer any more than you allow yourself to suffer. It's like a marriage, both sides have to give an equal share, and everything else will fall into place. Blessings to you.
